Merry Christmas

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas! I will check in with you all next week.

Upcoming Belly Shots

A few of you have requested more belly shots recently. I promise I will post many of them but the next one is not coming until after Christmas or even after my next doctor's appointment which is January 8th. I really don't think I have changed that much since the last picture.

Maybe after all the food I will eat at Christmas there will be a big change. I promise to update belly shots throughout this pregnancy even if I gain a million pounds.

Too funny

I don't normally stay up long enough to watch Saturday Night Live but this Saturday I was able to catch a few skits with Justin Timberlake as the host. The first skit with him singing about Homelessville was hilarious but this video had me laughing so hard I about fell off the couch. I laughed so hard my stomach hurt. The Best Week Ever has the video so I am going to give you the link to it. If you need a good laugh here you go.

http://www.bestweekever.tv/2006/12/18/icymi-dck-in-a-box/

So the story goes

Boy, this month is getting away from me. There has been so much to do it has become too stressful. Here are a few updates from the week.

Tuesday I had my doctor's appointment. I have gained 3 pounds since the last appointment. I got to hear the heartbeat which took longer to find then I would have liked but there it was beating great. I have been having muscle cramps in me upper abs and the doctor said the more pregnancies you have the more common this happens. I guess I should have exercised before this baby. It hurts a lot especially after holding Little Cubby for a period of time. This pregnancy has been rougher on me then the other two. Exhaustion, aches and pains everywhere, hormones through the roof so I cry at everything and get pissed off easily, and a lot of stress right now. Aren't you glad you are reading this?

I talked about in the last post about Big Cubby being invited to a birthday party that takes place while he is in his extension class. Well, Hubby and I decided to keep him in the class instead of going to the party. Several reasons why and you get the pleasure of reading them.

1. We just got a note saying one of the teachers is leaving the school due to conflict in teaching philosophies. This is Big Cubby's favorite teacher. She co-teaches the class and she teaches the extension class. She also has two children in the class. Her little girl is Big Cubby's best friend. I am devastated she is leaving. Big Cubby does not like the other teacher. She is kind of a bitch. So, this would be the last extension class the teacher would be teaching and we wanted BC to have that.

2. I am pissed at the mom's who planned this party for today. You see there are two extension classes one on Wednesday and one on Friday. There are more kids in the Wednesday class then Friday. I felt that they were only thinking about themselves and not being considerate that there was another class. Couldn't they have had this party on Thursday when there was no school and everybody could have attended or how about a weekend? They expected the kids to skip this class. I am sorry but we pay an extra $50 for this to help BC get ready for Kindergarten and we don't get pro rated if we miss it. We don't have that kind of money to throw away like most of the parents at this school.

3. This party is so close to Christmas that would have been a strain to buy two presents for these kids. I can barely buy gifts for my kids and my niece. Hubby and I don't even buy each other anything. Things right now are really tight.

4. This goes with number three, Big Cubby doesn't even like one of the boys who the party is for. This kid is a bully and has pushed BC down and has done other stuff to him. BC is adamant about not being around this kid. The other boy that the co-party is for BC does like but not when he is around this other kid. So I don't want to waste getting a gift for a kid that BC doesn't even like. This probably not the right attitude but this is a big world and I am not going to make BC be friends with some that he is afraid of.

So, you see I have bitched and moaned. The mom's have probably talked about me behind my back but I don't really care. The majority of them I don't have anything in common with. I am punk rock in a preppie world and I am ok with that. I have always read about mommy cliches but never had to experience that living in the city but now here in the burbs it is a real thing. I thought just being a mommy was all you needed to be in the club but that isn't the case. I wasn't popular in school and I am not now.

That is ok because I have all of you blog friends in my life and we may be all over the US but I feel like you are right here with me. Thank you for all of your support and love. You guys ROCK!

New firsts for the boys

Last Wednesday Big Cubby had his first playdate. A mom came up to me when I dropped BC off for school and wanted my phone number because her son was wanting BC to come over to play. Then she said well I know this is short notice but I am having another little boy over today if BC wanted to come. She said I was also invited and she would make lunch.

So I swallowed my no because I am not good in these situations and said yes. So after school we went over and went fairly well. They have a dog which scared BC because of being bit before by a dog but after the dog was blocked off he had fun. Each little boy wanted to play with BC. Little Cubby wasn't too bad either. We were only there for about an hour and 15 mins. Now though I am going to have to host one as courtesy and I could tell it is really a big deal and exhausting. Since the pregnancy is really hitting me hard this time I am not looking forward to it.


Other news.

Little Cubby has figured out how to climb out of his crib. It has been a blessing that his legs are short that he couldn't do this before so we could put off teaching him to sleep in a regular bed. I think we will put the crib matteress on the floor and start with that until after Christmas then get him a big boy bed. I remember hating the process of getting Big Cubby to stay in his bed. I have been dreading Little Cubby doing this for a long time. I guess it has to happen sometime since a new little one will need the crib.

Big Cubby got an invitation to a birthday party on Friday for two of the little boys in his class. It is at a bowling alley and it is right after school. This will be the first one he has ever gone to. I am a little nervous about it but I think he should go. One problem though, Big Cubby does not like one of the little boys who is having the party. The kid is kind of a bully and has done a couple of things to Big Cubby. Luckily the teacher say this and has dealt with it. I don't know how is this is going to go. Just remember something. Big Cubby has extension class on Fridays and doesn't get out until 1pm so I don't think he can go since the party starts at 11:30am. We pay extra for this so I don't want him to miss school. We will see what happens.

Wish me luck.

Week 11 Belly Shot

Well you asked for it so here it is. My first belly shot. I know I just look fat and bloated but there it is. I will post shots regularly as I get bigger.

Enjoy!

Wedding Bells

The other night Hubby asked Big Cubby how is day at school was. Big Cubby told him that he was getting married next week to a little girl in his class named Jennifer. He said that she thinks he is funny. Then he changed his mind and said he was going to marry another girl in his class named Kathleen. He said she was nice and cute.

Oh boy, has it started all ready?

Update Y'all

Ok the title stinks but Britney has been all over the news lately and plus I just watched a video of a skit on Saturday Night Live with Amy Poehler as Britney Spears. Very Funny.

I really don't have much of an update on the pregnancy. I don't have my doctor's appointment until December 12th. I can tell you that I am not as nauseous as I was. That seems to be subsiding though I am sensitive to smells so if something disgusts me I will feel sick.

I am starting to get a belly. It happened overnight. I am still really tired. By the end of the day I am exhausted. It doesn't help with a screaming two-year-old to deal with all day. That kid better get over this phase quickly. I am going insane.

I am very emotional right now. I pretty much cry at the drop of a hat. Sunday I took Big Cubby to a Christmas parade in our town and I almost started crying hearing the parade start. I am a freak.

We are dealing with the wants right now. Big Cubby has been going over and over the Toys R Us Big Book catalog and telling me everything he wants. I keep telling him he will get some things but not everything. We bought the boys a train table with all the accessories and now he tells me he wants a play kitchen. It is too late. I hope he is not disappointed. I don't think so when he see the train table.

I am all ready feeling the Christmas stress. I have a budget and I am trying not to let the pressure get to me. I hate the holiday season for this. I just want to appreciate the reason for the season.

Well, that is about it here. Will let you guys know about the doc's appointment later.

Happy Thanksgiving

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving and totally stuffed yourself to the point you had to roll off the couch. I did!

We stayed home this year and Hubby and I made dinner for the four of us. I discovered our smoke detector works. Nothing got burned just spilled in the oven and that burned.

The meal turned out ok. Next year I would rather go to my in-laws instead.

We didn't this year because we are going down Christmas. I hate traveling on Christmas. This might be the last time.

Have a great weekend and don't spend too much money!

Need Advice

Ok everybody, I need your advice. Do I need to buy Big Cubby's preschool teachers a gift for Christmas? I am thinking yes. So what would be an appropriate gift? An ornament? gift card? I really can't spend a whole lot because we have to buy for Hubby's writers something as well.

I don't have a clue what to do here. HELP!

It's Official

The doctor's appointment finally got here and I was a little nervous. Did the routine stuff and then the doctor came in. He did an internal ultrasound and there on the screen was baby number 3. The little heart was beating so fast. It was really real. My first reaction was relieved and then the second was this is really happening. Good news looks like only one in there.

My due date is June 21st, but I think it is June 18th. We shall see. So I think that makes me 3 months pregnant. The next appointment will be actually hearing the hearbeat.

A lot of emotions, fears and stress hit Hubby and I all at once last night and it exhausted us. I have to keep making myself believe that everything is going to turn out ok.

Count Down

Monday afternoon is my doctor's appointment and I can't wait. I can finally know what is going on with me and confirm this pregnancy. I really hope that I will be able to hear the heartbeat because I won't feel comfortable until I do. If I have to wait another month I will scream. I need that reassurance that everything is all right.

I am still getting nauseous and really tired. I now at night kicking around in bed. It is driving my husband nuts. I guess I flip and flip and kick around the covers. I never do this. I am having weird dreams that don't make sense.

I have been really freaking out about a third child. I can barely handle the two I have. Since becoming a Mom I yell more, have no patience, get frustrated easy, get angry more often and finding myself wanting to throw in the towel. I don't know how I am going to handle a third.

I am counting down the days until the doc's appointment. I really need to know everything is going to be all right.

Finally Haloween Pics

Buzz Lightyear

Buzz and the "Alien"

Halloween in the Burbs

Halloween in the burbs is crazy busy. In the city, nobody really trick or treated in our neighborhood. Everybody would go to the zoo the Saturday before to trick or treat.

So are first experience was really busy.

Friday night we took the boys to trick or treat downtown to the local business. It was pretty crowded despite the cold weather. The boys had a lot of fun doing that.

Saturday morning I took Big Cubby to the theater around the corner for the Halloween Happenings. This was a costume contest and then a free movie which was Over the Hedge and free popcorn. Big Cubby was so great he walked on stage and did his Buzzlightyear stance and look. He did not win anything but he had fun. I won a raffle prize which shocked me because I don't win a lot. It was a doggie purse for a little girl. A great gift for my niece. After the movie, there was window painting downtown but it was too cold for that and we headed home.

Sunday was the Halloween parade but Hubby was sick and I was feeling exhausted so we didn't do that.

Monday was Big Cubby's Halloween party at school. Hubby stayed home with Little Cubby while I went to help out at the party. It was fun. I helped out with arts and crafts. Boy those kids say anything. They were pretty cute. They got lots of goodies. Before school got out they had a little program for the parents where they had a little parade around the gym and then they sang three songs. Big Cubby did so good. I was proud of him. Earlier in the week, he said he did not want to sing but he did it.

Tuesday night was trick or treating in the neighborhood. We decided not to go out. I was not feeling good at all. It was really cold. We live behind a business so nobody knew we lived there so we got no trick or treaters which is what I thought.

I don't have much energy these days. I usually end up taking a nap in the afternoon when LC is napping and BC is watching a movie. I have been pretty miserable.

So that is what has been happening lately. I will try to get picture of the boys in their costumes tonight. Big Cubby was Buzzlightyear and Little Cubby was an alien(it really was a frog costume but Big Cubby kept calling him an alien.)

I hope everybody had a safe and happy Halloween!

Adapting

For some reason I have been busy since Thursday and I haven't had time to update my blog until now.

Friday I bought a digital pregnancy test that had two for the price of one in the box. This pregnancy test literally spells out pregnant or not pregnant on the stick. So after I got home I took one of the tests. It came out pregnant. The next morning right after I got up I took the second test. It came out pregnant. Well, I guess that is official. I am still waiting until my November 13th appointment to be ready to accept the pregnancy. We did go ahead and tell our families. I just wanted them to know for their support. My family was really surprised and then kind of acted like we were crazy.

I have started getting some pregnancy symptoms. My sense so smell is strong and a lot of smells make me nauseous. I haven't thrown up yet though. Never go to Sam's Club if smells bother you. All the sample foods they had made me sick. The smell of all of them was gross.

I get nauseous if I start to get hungry. I have to eat something to keep it at bay.

I have been exhausted lately. I have been trying to doze will Little Cubby is napping and Big Cubby is watching a movie.

Overall I feel like crap. I don't feel normal and just feel ill. I am trying to cope because the boys don't know anything yet and I don't want them to worry especially Big Cubby.

Both boys have been really trying to fight for my attention lately. Pushing each other out of the way to sit on my lap. I am trying to balance attention for both but it is hard. What am I going to do with a third. I feel spread thin as it is. I guess I will manage.

I have one big worry and that is twins. My grandmother on my Dad's side is a fraternal twin. It is her and her brother. I think I would totally freak out if I found out I was carry twins. Pray that I am not.

Denial Denial

I have been in denial since taking the pregnancy test. So much in fact I am taking a different pregnancy test this weekend to double check. It sucks that my doctor's appointment isn't until November 13th.

Don't worry I have stopped drinking alcohol, only drinking one cup of coffee in the morning, drinking more water and taking a multivitamin.

The problem is I don't feel pregnant. With my first son, before I knew I was pregnant I would pass out and sleep at all hours. I was sooo tired. Then came morning sickness where most smells made me nauseous. My boobs were super sore. With son number two, I was tired, nauseous and boobs sore right away.

This time around nothing. I have no symptoms. My boobs are not sore or big. No morning sickness. Not any tired than normal. Nothing. It is really weird. I know that every pregnancy is different but this is really weird.

So you see why I am in denial about it because I don't feel it.

I have been worried about what this pregnancy was going to do to my relationship with my husband. Since kids, we sort of grown apart. Not bad just how things happen after kids. The past few months we have been working on our intimacy issues and were coming along nicely. Now this happens and I am afraid it will drive us apart. I have been trying really hard not to let that happen.

With everything else I am worrying about: money, the boys reaction when we tell them, where we are going to live next year(lease up in May and was only temp guy trying to sell), estimated due month in June, where Big Cubby will go to Kindergarten, money, going back to no sleep, whether to breastfeed or use formula(breastfed both boys but really hated it did it for their well being), whether the baby will be a boy or girl( have plenty of boy clothes), threw out a lot of baby stuff, and whether North Korea is going to have a nuclear bomb. Ok, maybe that is too much.

So that is what I have been going through the last couple of days.

Hubby and I talked last night about everything and he has been really supportive and understanding. I don't know what I would do without him. He has been great.

So not too much going on right?

Snowfall in Fall

Here are a couple of photos of the snow we got on Thursday Oct. 12th in Chicagoland. It was a new record for early measurable snow. Crazy.

Out our dining room window

Our neighbor's car. Snow falling

Dazed and Confused

Thank you everybody for the warm congrats. I have been in shock and a daze for the past couple of days. I am just trying to wrap my head around it. I have set up a doctor's appointment and it is on November 13th.

I know this is really early in the pregnancy and I haven't even confirmed this with a doctor but I wanted to share this in the beginning if God forbid something happens. I want to share all my feelings here since I can't with family.

I don't want to come off ungrateful or selfish here. I don't want to offend anybody who is having fertility problems. I know I am blessed and very lucky. I am just trying to work out these feelings.

This was not planned. When we were trying for both boys it took 6 months to conceive both of them. Two times for this one was all it took. Two times!

I feel guilty because my brother-in-law and sister-in-law have been trying for over ten years to get pregnant and can't. They can't afford IVF and have looked into adoption but it is also expensive. Here I am pregnant again and they have none. I know they love our kids a whole lot. I know they will be excited about the news but I feel deep down they might be resentful.

This is why my feelings are screwed up right now. I know that after the doctor's appointment when everything is confirmed and I have a due date that I might be able to relax.

By the way R. Martini, I am not keeping the test. I just wanted a picture of it instead.

Be warned everybody I am not a happy person pregnant. Both times I complained a lot. I am just warning you.

Guess what?

This is a big surprise. Not planned.

Long weekend and an ER trip

On Friday after Big Cubby got out of school, we headed to southern Illinois to visit my in-laws and to go to SIU homecoming. The trip started out bad we were stuck on 294 for two hours crawling along. We didn't get to SI until 8pm. Earlier that day we bought a portable DVD player with two screens for the boys and that was a lifesaver.

Saturday Hubby and I left the boys with my in-laws and headed to SIU to catch the parade and hangout at the tailgate party before the game. We couldn't get tickets to the game so we walked around campus and headed out for lunch at a local bar. It was really fun. We stocked up on SIU gear.

Saturday night my brother-in-law and sister-in-law came over for dinner at my in-laws. We were in the living room and Hubby and Big Cubby were down the hall. Hubby was checking email because he had to reply to something for work. Well, Big Cubby scared my in-laws dog while he was sleeping and he turned around and bit Big Cubby on the head. We heard this horrifying scream and ran down to see Hubby holding a scared Big Cubby and his forehead with a tooth mark on it. This dog is the most laid back and loving dog. The two things he doesn't like is being snuck up on and bothered while eating. Two things we have been telling Big Cubby all the time. We head outside to get some air because Little Cubby was concerned and Big Cubby wanted away from the dog. We walk up to this park and Hubby yells to me to come over to him and hurry. He says put on a brave face.

I get over to where he is and he shows me a small gash on Big Cubby's head. The dog grabbed a hold of his head and Big Cubby hit and kicked him off. So there was more to his wounds. I almost lost it. I told him I think we should go to the ER. Hubby didn't think so but agreed to ask his Dad about hit. They take off to the house while I tell my BIL and SIL what is going on and could they watch Little Cubby. I was crying by then because I knew my MIL would be really upset and think it was her fault which it totally wasn't. I get myself together and head to the house. By then my FIL says we should take BC to the ER. My MIL comes out and sees and almost falls over and starts crying. I run to grab BIL and SIL because FIL wanted to go with us but did not want to leave her alone.

We head to the ER and there is only one other person in waiting. We sign in and wait and wait. Finally he gets called and after 4 hours in the ER good news was he did not need stitches and they cleaned out the would, gave us a prescrib of pencillin and orders to clean it three times a day for 5 days. Well, the wound was all ready healing by the time we left on Monday. He is fine and still likes the dog though he knows to bother him.

Scary moment for all of us. My MIL felt horrible but BC told her that he loved her and that made her feel better. He knew it was his fault and he should not have done that to the dog. He felt bad.

So there is our adventure of the weekend.