We are back. Actually we came back late Wednesday afternoon and I have been busy unpacking and doing laundry. We had a great time. We got to see our family and relax. I will be trying to catch up on all of your blogs and will update later on our trip.
In the meantime check out my Hubby's photos. The first eight are from our trip. They were taken in Southern Illinios. He will have more in a few days.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ten-nine/
Friday, June 30, 2006
Friday, June 23, 2006
Road trip
Going to visit family and won't be getting on the computer for a few days. Check out two new posts today and I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Be back next week sometime!
Be back next week sometime!
Preschool
Well it is official we signed up Big Cubby for preschool. He will be in the 4 to 5 year old class. He will go Monday, Wednesday, and Friday from 8:30am to 11am and we might sign him up for an extended class that meets once a week from 11am to 1pm.
He is very excited about going. The program looks really great and he will be learning a lot but yet still being able to play. They get to go on field trips and everything.
I think this is going to be good for both of us. He needs time away from Mommy and I need a break from him. Yeah I still have the little one but he can play by himself very well.
So come September my first born is going to school. Yikes!
He is very excited about going. The program looks really great and he will be learning a lot but yet still being able to play. They get to go on field trips and everything.
I think this is going to be good for both of us. He needs time away from Mommy and I need a break from him. Yeah I still have the little one but he can play by himself very well.
So come September my first born is going to school. Yikes!
Bright Lights Big Carnival
As I am typing this there is a carnival going on behind my house. I can see the ride called Gravity Drop or something from my window. Yeah I hear the people scream everytime the thing drops. They have the music pumping. The music is all pop music that is hip right now.
I am a little disappointed and also showing my age but back in the day when the carnival came to town the music was Def Leppard or Whitesnake and the prizes you would win would be mirrors with Poison or Skid Row on them or roach clips. Yes, they gave these out as prizes and I thought they were to clip on your jeans. Hey, I was young.
Now the prizes are inflatable baseball bats with American flag print. Not kidding. I haven't checked out the whole thing yet it really got started today but the rides where a preview last night.
Tonight we are going to take Big Cubby over to ride the kiddie rides he is so excited.
The town is having a Heritage Festival where there are booths, rides, fireworks(also will be seen from the back of my house), food, music,(John I Wear My Sunglasses at Night Waite) and much more. I guess it is a big deal here and it runs through Sunday.
Funnel Cakes here I come!
I am a little disappointed and also showing my age but back in the day when the carnival came to town the music was Def Leppard or Whitesnake and the prizes you would win would be mirrors with Poison or Skid Row on them or roach clips. Yes, they gave these out as prizes and I thought they were to clip on your jeans. Hey, I was young.
Now the prizes are inflatable baseball bats with American flag print. Not kidding. I haven't checked out the whole thing yet it really got started today but the rides where a preview last night.
Tonight we are going to take Big Cubby over to ride the kiddie rides he is so excited.
The town is having a Heritage Festival where there are booths, rides, fireworks(also will be seen from the back of my house), food, music,(John I Wear My Sunglasses at Night Waite) and much more. I guess it is a big deal here and it runs through Sunday.
Funnel Cakes here I come!
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Everything
A while back I was kind of going through something and I really did not know how to blog about it. I guess you can say I was a little depressed. I had an overwhelming sadness. I really could not put my finger on it. I tried to explain it to Hubby but I wasn't sure why I was feeling this way.
I have had sometime to think and reflect on it. I think it was a combination of things. The stress of the move catching up with me. I have been trying to come out of my prison shell that I have had for 4 1/2 years. I have really gotten to the point that I don't have confidence in myself that I can't even make a freaking phone call without panicking. I never use to be like this. I was afraid to drive in the city and finally took the chance and was able to drive to the near burbs to shop but I could not drive downtown. I can drive around where I live know and as one of my last posts I drove all the way to freaking Cicero. Part of my inside is still unsure.
Another thing is moving out the city really showing me that I am no longer young. I love the city but it is a young person's place. I guess I have been mourning my youth. I will be turning 34 in August and it hit me I am a Mom. I am an adult. I have never really thought of myself that way. Moving to the suburbs is the next step into buying a house and settling down. We have never owned a place before. I like to think of us as gypsies and that if we wanted to flee we could and have no responsibilites. But now Big Cubby is reaching school age and it is not fair on the kids to pick up and move all the time.
I had been dealing with all these emotions. My relationship with my husband hasn't been all that great. We aren't fighting or anything just kind of coexisting. It seems we never have time to talk just us that there is always an intrusion.
Do you find it hard sometimes to separate yourself between mother and wife? Do you find that you get tired of kids literally hanging on you all day that the last thing you want is for someone else touching you?
I have been really trying to work on this. Maybe this is too much info for this blog but this is what I have been going through the past few weeks. I have been trying to make sense of it. Trying to make time to talk with my husband in the evening after the boys go to bed. Trying to overcome my fears. Trying to figure out where I belong.
Sorry to be so heavy.
I have had sometime to think and reflect on it. I think it was a combination of things. The stress of the move catching up with me. I have been trying to come out of my prison shell that I have had for 4 1/2 years. I have really gotten to the point that I don't have confidence in myself that I can't even make a freaking phone call without panicking. I never use to be like this. I was afraid to drive in the city and finally took the chance and was able to drive to the near burbs to shop but I could not drive downtown. I can drive around where I live know and as one of my last posts I drove all the way to freaking Cicero. Part of my inside is still unsure.
Another thing is moving out the city really showing me that I am no longer young. I love the city but it is a young person's place. I guess I have been mourning my youth. I will be turning 34 in August and it hit me I am a Mom. I am an adult. I have never really thought of myself that way. Moving to the suburbs is the next step into buying a house and settling down. We have never owned a place before. I like to think of us as gypsies and that if we wanted to flee we could and have no responsibilites. But now Big Cubby is reaching school age and it is not fair on the kids to pick up and move all the time.
I had been dealing with all these emotions. My relationship with my husband hasn't been all that great. We aren't fighting or anything just kind of coexisting. It seems we never have time to talk just us that there is always an intrusion.
Do you find it hard sometimes to separate yourself between mother and wife? Do you find that you get tired of kids literally hanging on you all day that the last thing you want is for someone else touching you?
I have been really trying to work on this. Maybe this is too much info for this blog but this is what I have been going through the past few weeks. I have been trying to make sense of it. Trying to make time to talk with my husband in the evening after the boys go to bed. Trying to overcome my fears. Trying to figure out where I belong.
Sorry to be so heavy.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I won
I discovered Brenda Scott Royce on Manic Mom's blog. She had won the monthly contest at the time. So I went to check out her site and signed up for the monthly contest. I won the May contest. I just received an autographed book called Monkey Love and a $20 Target gift card. You should really check her out. I will be reading the book very soon.
I don't have a lot of luck so this is cool I actually one this. I love books.
I don't have a lot of luck so this is cool I actually one this. I love books.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Train adventure
Where to begin? I have been busy lately so I haven’t been able to update as much. I have a few things to write about so here it goes.
Last Thursday the Metra trains shut down due to a spilled bag of white acid(not the rec drug) but the type you use for making soap or candles something like that. Here is how the story goes. Thursday morning I took the boys on walk to the post office and we walked along the train station so the boys could see the trains that went by. I had noticed a bag on the middle track that looked like it had fallen off a train. This was around 9:30am. Around 3:30 pm we went by again and it was still there. We went to the library and when we came back by on the way home around 4:00pm there was a fire truck and several police officers standing along the train station. There was a train sitting there. I thought it maybe something happened on the train. There were a lot of people waiting.
We were going to stop off to the side to watch the trains go by when a gentleman was walking by and said that it would be about 30 minutes before trains go by because of a package on the tracks. I laughed and said they are just now doing something with that it has been there all day. We head home. I call Hubby to tell him he might have a delay on the train. Just then I here a helicopter outside, so I step out and see three helicopters from the news stations. I run in and turn on the news. They are reporting that the Hazmat dept. has been called out because they think the substance on the tracks is some sort of chemical. They said they are only letting trains come up to my street not the station and letting people off. I call Hubby back and tell him it is a bigger deal.
He gets on a train around 6pm and by now the trains are only going as far as a train station that is 4 miles from my house. I tell Hubby I will pick him up. I get a call back from him telling me that they have stopped at the Cicero stop and told people to get off. He says there are no cabs and he is thinking about walking back to the city.
Cicero is right next to the city on the west side. It is not a very safe burb. It has just been announced the second suburb that has the most gangs in it. I freak out and tell Hubby he is not walking to the city while it is getting dark. I tell him I am on my way. It is a straight shot to the train station he is at and it is right across the street from a police station.
I load up the kids and head out. The traffic is horrible. It is rush hour plus people going to pick people stranded by the trains. As I am driving down Ogden, there are tons of people on cell phones walking or standing and waiting for a ride. It takes me 15 mins to go 5 miles. Hubby is 20 miles away. Traffic finally breaks a little and I can go a little bit faster. I miss then street I needed to turn on and I turn on the next street hoping to turn around and I see down it the train tracks so I head that way and there is the station and Hubby waiting.
Right as I am turning in Little Cubby throws up. He did the same thing he did last Saturday. So, I pull in and tell Hubby. We pull out Little Cubby take off his clothes, wipe him down and wipe is seat down. We put him back in the seat with just his diaper and head home. We did not get home until 9pm. The trains started up again by then. 12,000 people were stranded because of this.
I was pretty proud of myself for driving to Cicero. I did not do too much driving in the city so this was a big deal. I can drive in most burbs fine.
Last Thursday the Metra trains shut down due to a spilled bag of white acid(not the rec drug) but the type you use for making soap or candles something like that. Here is how the story goes. Thursday morning I took the boys on walk to the post office and we walked along the train station so the boys could see the trains that went by. I had noticed a bag on the middle track that looked like it had fallen off a train. This was around 9:30am. Around 3:30 pm we went by again and it was still there. We went to the library and when we came back by on the way home around 4:00pm there was a fire truck and several police officers standing along the train station. There was a train sitting there. I thought it maybe something happened on the train. There were a lot of people waiting.
We were going to stop off to the side to watch the trains go by when a gentleman was walking by and said that it would be about 30 minutes before trains go by because of a package on the tracks. I laughed and said they are just now doing something with that it has been there all day. We head home. I call Hubby to tell him he might have a delay on the train. Just then I here a helicopter outside, so I step out and see three helicopters from the news stations. I run in and turn on the news. They are reporting that the Hazmat dept. has been called out because they think the substance on the tracks is some sort of chemical. They said they are only letting trains come up to my street not the station and letting people off. I call Hubby back and tell him it is a bigger deal.
He gets on a train around 6pm and by now the trains are only going as far as a train station that is 4 miles from my house. I tell Hubby I will pick him up. I get a call back from him telling me that they have stopped at the Cicero stop and told people to get off. He says there are no cabs and he is thinking about walking back to the city.
Cicero is right next to the city on the west side. It is not a very safe burb. It has just been announced the second suburb that has the most gangs in it. I freak out and tell Hubby he is not walking to the city while it is getting dark. I tell him I am on my way. It is a straight shot to the train station he is at and it is right across the street from a police station.
I load up the kids and head out. The traffic is horrible. It is rush hour plus people going to pick people stranded by the trains. As I am driving down Ogden, there are tons of people on cell phones walking or standing and waiting for a ride. It takes me 15 mins to go 5 miles. Hubby is 20 miles away. Traffic finally breaks a little and I can go a little bit faster. I miss then street I needed to turn on and I turn on the next street hoping to turn around and I see down it the train tracks so I head that way and there is the station and Hubby waiting.
Right as I am turning in Little Cubby throws up. He did the same thing he did last Saturday. So, I pull in and tell Hubby. We pull out Little Cubby take off his clothes, wipe him down and wipe is seat down. We put him back in the seat with just his diaper and head home. We did not get home until 9pm. The trains started up again by then. 12,000 people were stranded because of this.
I was pretty proud of myself for driving to Cicero. I did not do too much driving in the city so this was a big deal. I can drive in most burbs fine.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
One year old
Today is my 1st Blog Anniversary. I can not believe it has been a year since I started this journey. I want to thank all of my blog readers. I have come to think of you as my friends! You guys have been kind of enough to stick with me through good and bad times. You have given great advice and loving support. I don't know what I would have done without you.
This blog was started as a journal to help me record feelings and thoughts. I wanted to feel that I was alone and that other people had the same problems and ideas that I did. Being a parent has been rough and sometimes very frustrating. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing a good job. Blogging has let me peek into other peoples worlds and see that everybody is not perfect and that we all have issues.
I finally feel normal and that I am doing the best I can to help my sons to grow up and be fine men.
Thank you for reading and commenting. Here's to another year of trials and triumphs!
This blog was started as a journal to help me record feelings and thoughts. I wanted to feel that I was alone and that other people had the same problems and ideas that I did. Being a parent has been rough and sometimes very frustrating. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing a good job. Blogging has let me peek into other peoples worlds and see that everybody is not perfect and that we all have issues.
I finally feel normal and that I am doing the best I can to help my sons to grow up and be fine men.
Thank you for reading and commenting. Here's to another year of trials and triumphs!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
It never fails
Over the weekend, we headed over to the mall to check this store out. It is awesome everything in the store was $7.95. We bought Hubby a pair of pants and we each got a t-shirt with SIU on it. That isn't the story though.
I decided to pack a small bag for the diapers and wipes. I had been carrying around this big bag full of everything from change of clothes to umbrellas. I just threw in a couple of diapers, wipes, sippy cup and changing mat.
We were getting close to the mall when Big Cubby starts freaking out. Little Cubby decides to throw up. Lately he was been sticking his fingers down his throat gagging himself. I am not sure if it was that or his stomach was upset. The puke was just a little and I head back the back when he throws up again. We are talking the Exorcist. It was chocolate milk. Man, the smell of sour milk took over the van. He got it on his seat, jacket, shirt underneath and pants. It was a cool day out as well.
Hubby spots a Wal-Mart so we head over there. Big Cubby is about to throw up himself because he is really sensitive to stuff like that. So we are yelling at him to look out the window and just breathe. We pull in the parking lot and Hubby with Big Cubby head inside. I meanwhile take off all of Little Cubby's clothes trying not to get it on me which is hard because the poor kid is upset and just wants to be held by his mommy.
Little Cubby is dancing around the back of the van with just a diaper and socks on having a grand old time. I am trying to clean up the mess with baby wipes. Hubby comes back with a shirt, jeans, apple juice, sippy cup and more wipes. We get it all cleaned up and head to the mall.
We buy a jacket for him at Sears and then we head to lunch. That is right after all that the kid is hungry and surprisingly so are we. Big Cubby was still affected by it and would eat much. Little Cubby was fine the rest of the day so who knows what happened.
This happened to us when Big Cubby was little as well. We were out and about when he threw up. Both times I had decided to limit my bag contents. It never fails. So now I lug a big bag around with a full outfits for each boy because you never know.
I decided to pack a small bag for the diapers and wipes. I had been carrying around this big bag full of everything from change of clothes to umbrellas. I just threw in a couple of diapers, wipes, sippy cup and changing mat.
We were getting close to the mall when Big Cubby starts freaking out. Little Cubby decides to throw up. Lately he was been sticking his fingers down his throat gagging himself. I am not sure if it was that or his stomach was upset. The puke was just a little and I head back the back when he throws up again. We are talking the Exorcist. It was chocolate milk. Man, the smell of sour milk took over the van. He got it on his seat, jacket, shirt underneath and pants. It was a cool day out as well.
Hubby spots a Wal-Mart so we head over there. Big Cubby is about to throw up himself because he is really sensitive to stuff like that. So we are yelling at him to look out the window and just breathe. We pull in the parking lot and Hubby with Big Cubby head inside. I meanwhile take off all of Little Cubby's clothes trying not to get it on me which is hard because the poor kid is upset and just wants to be held by his mommy.
Little Cubby is dancing around the back of the van with just a diaper and socks on having a grand old time. I am trying to clean up the mess with baby wipes. Hubby comes back with a shirt, jeans, apple juice, sippy cup and more wipes. We get it all cleaned up and head to the mall.
We buy a jacket for him at Sears and then we head to lunch. That is right after all that the kid is hungry and surprisingly so are we. Big Cubby was still affected by it and would eat much. Little Cubby was fine the rest of the day so who knows what happened.
This happened to us when Big Cubby was little as well. We were out and about when he threw up. Both times I had decided to limit my bag contents. It never fails. So now I lug a big bag around with a full outfits for each boy because you never know.
Friday, June 09, 2006
A little light reading
Sorry I haven’t posted anything in awhile. I have been doing a lot thinking and a lot of reading. On the thinking part, I have been going through some weird emotions lately and I haven’t been able to put them to words. I can’t even explain it to Hubby I just don’t know what it is. I will try to write more on that later.
Now for the reading part. Since the May 21st, I have been doing a lot of reading. Before I was busy moving, unpacking and just trying to settle in. So I got busy and have been reading in my spare time, mostly at night.
Here are the books I have read so far.
The Da Vinci Code-Dan Brown-It was ok. I really didn’t see what the big fuss was about. It was predictable and I knew right away who the Teacher was.
Coroner’s Journal: Stalking Death in Louisiana-Louis Cataldie-This was a good book. I am fascinated with forensics but I know that I could never face what these people face everyday.
Baby Proof-Emily Giffin- I won this book from Manic Mom and it actually hits bookstores on June 13th so it was cool to get it before everybody else. I was a pretty good book. I had strong feelings about the character in that I did not like her. Maybe because I did not chose her path. I think a good book provides you with reacting to the characters good or bad. I think this one will spark some debate.
Adventures of a Celebrity Personal Assistant Chore Whore-Heather H. Howard- This was a fun book! I am a celeb gossip whore and I loved the story line. It was delicious.
The next two books were recommended by Stephen King in the last Entertainment Weekly.
Dispatch-Bentley Little-I only read half of this book and could not finish it. I was bored. Hubby read it and told me the end. Not satisfying.
The Store-Bentley Little-Did finish this one I did not like it either. The guy rips off Stephen King no wonder King likes him. It reminded me of Stephen King’s earlier stuff but not as good.
The Breakup Club-Melissa Senate-I love this author. See Jane Date, Whose Wedding is it Anyway, and The Solomon Sisters Wise Up are her other books. This one did not disappoint.
Tales From the Crib-Risa Green-This is a sequel to Notes From the Underbelly. Tales is about the aftermath of giving birth. It really nails it.
So I have been busy trying to stimulate my mind. I will write more later on what I have been going through lately.
Bye for now!
Now for the reading part. Since the May 21st, I have been doing a lot of reading. Before I was busy moving, unpacking and just trying to settle in. So I got busy and have been reading in my spare time, mostly at night.
Here are the books I have read so far.
The Da Vinci Code-Dan Brown-It was ok. I really didn’t see what the big fuss was about. It was predictable and I knew right away who the Teacher was.
Coroner’s Journal: Stalking Death in Louisiana-Louis Cataldie-This was a good book. I am fascinated with forensics but I know that I could never face what these people face everyday.
Baby Proof-Emily Giffin- I won this book from Manic Mom and it actually hits bookstores on June 13th so it was cool to get it before everybody else. I was a pretty good book. I had strong feelings about the character in that I did not like her. Maybe because I did not chose her path. I think a good book provides you with reacting to the characters good or bad. I think this one will spark some debate.
Adventures of a Celebrity Personal Assistant Chore Whore-Heather H. Howard- This was a fun book! I am a celeb gossip whore and I loved the story line. It was delicious.
The next two books were recommended by Stephen King in the last Entertainment Weekly.
Dispatch-Bentley Little-I only read half of this book and could not finish it. I was bored. Hubby read it and told me the end. Not satisfying.
The Store-Bentley Little-Did finish this one I did not like it either. The guy rips off Stephen King no wonder King likes him. It reminded me of Stephen King’s earlier stuff but not as good.
The Breakup Club-Melissa Senate-I love this author. See Jane Date, Whose Wedding is it Anyway, and The Solomon Sisters Wise Up are her other books. This one did not disappoint.
Tales From the Crib-Risa Green-This is a sequel to Notes From the Underbelly. Tales is about the aftermath of giving birth. It really nails it.
So I have been busy trying to stimulate my mind. I will write more later on what I have been going through lately.
Bye for now!
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Hubby is going to cry when he sees this
David Lee Roth was on Leno last night. He has put out a CD with Van Halen songs sung bluegrass style. Here is the video. This is really sad.Is David pissed so now he is going to mock Van Halen?
Saturday, June 03, 2006
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