Big Cubby's first day of preschool

Big Cubby had his first day of preschool yesterday. I will have photos that we took of him acting like he was leaving for school later.

Hubby worked from home yesterday so I wouldn't have to take Little Cubby with us for the first day.

The night before Big Cubby was so excited about going to school. We laid out his clothes, shoes, jacket, and backpack which were all new. In the morning, I went to wake him up and tell him it was time to get ready for school. He was excited.

We loaded up the van and off we went. We pull up and there are other kids with their parents walking up. We head to the steps leading up to the door and Big Cubby tells me that he has got it and doesn't need to hold my hand. I was composed and I said ok. A mom next to me goes I am too trying to give my little guy space but it is hard.

We go to the classroom and he hangs up his stuff and off he goes to play. I chat with a few moms and check his mailbox then it was time for me to leave. I go up to Big Cubby and tell him I am leaving and he says ok bye. I ask for a kiss which he gives and then I leave.

I did not cry in the van on the way back to the house. Hubby askes me if I am all right and I said yes just nervous about how he is going to act there. So we have nervous energy and just wait until 11 to get him.

I go and pick him up and they bring him to the van. I ask him did he have fun and he tells me no and he is sad and does not want to go back. I ask why and he tells me the teachers said it was time to pick up the toys but he wants to keep playing with the blocks then a boy takes the blocks away from him and puts them away. He then starts crying.

I tell him that when the teacher tells you to pick up then you do it. I had to ask him 20 questions just to get out of him what he did at school. Overall I think he had a fun time.

We get home and he tells his daddy about his day then he pulls out of his pocket a yellow plastic bear and says this is for you mommy. Hubby and I look at each other and ask was he supposed to take this out of the classroom. He says no. Hubby sits him down and explains about stealing while I go into another room and just start crying.

I think everything caught up with me. I was upset because I had talked to him about the toys staying at school. I felt like a failure right at that moment.

Friday when he goes back to school I have to make sure he goes to the teacher and say he took the bear without asking and he was sorry.

When he gets embarrassed he totally shuts down. So with that and having Little Cubby with me who will want to get down and play and be crying when we have to leave Friday is going to be a stressful day.

Good news is he ask about school today and says he wants to go tomorrow.