Back from a break of blogging. I just needed some time. I was getting burned out on it. I started this blog as a journal and in hopes of meeting people who had been through what I had or at least understood. Then I got sucked up into worrying about what people would think of me if I posted certain things or feelings. I became disenchanted with the whole blog thing. People can turn on you so quick.
I have been having a hard time lately. I didn’t want to post about how crappy this pregnancy is going. Don’t get me wrong, everything is fine. Just went to the doctor on Tuesday and my blood pressure is good, my weight gain is good, I am not anemic and they were supposed to call me if I failed my glucose test and they did not call so I passed that. The doctor said like three times I looked really good for being pregnant. She was impressed. What is going on are crappy little things that are annoying like total exhaustion, being nauseous all the time, having no appetite and forcing myself to eat, being repulsed by any meat product, aches and pains from my hips and low back you know normal stuff I guess but this time it seems worse then the other two. The doctor thinks the baby won’t be that big. Good news since BC was 8lbs, 11oz and LC was 9lbs, 4oz. I thought for sure this one would go up in weight. It would be nice to have a baby under 8lbs.
I have been become easily annoyed and downright bitchy lately. I feel bad for everybody in the house.
On top of all this, my grandfather is not doing well. He fell a couple of weeks ago and broke his hip. The hospital kicked him out because they had done all they could do so this week he was put into part of a nursing home for rehabilitation which he can stay for 20 days then a decision has to be made. If he doesn’t get any better then he will have to be put in a nursing home because my grandmother can’t take care of him by herself and they can’t afford 24 hour care. My grandpa cried when they took him on Tuesday saying why does God hate me. My sister says he is not looking good even though my Mom says otherwise. It is her Dad and I think she is in denial. I have been preparing myself for his death. I just have a feeling it will be soon. What sucks is I am getting late into my pregnancy and might not be able to get home in case something happens. The drive is 6 hours or so away.
So that is not all that is going on but it is enough to talk about right now. I promise I will have Hubby take a belly pic of me this weekend and I will post it.
6 comments:
Oh hon, I'm so sorry things are rough right now. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. Take care of your self, that is the most important thing right now. Hugs to you and that babe.
Yep take care of your self right now..when you are stronger and feeling better things will seem brighter and this too shall pass into a faded blip.
Oh, Cubmommy, I wish I could just hug you to pieces. I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather and his condition.
Stress comes at you in so many ways, and it feels like it happens tenfold when you're pregnant. I wish I could take your place for a while so you could breathe.
(((HUGS)))
Ohhhh that SUCKS! I feel so bad for you. And I'm sorry about your grandpa, too. Hang in there.
What everyone else said. I wish I could give you a hug! Sorry about your Gramps, it CAN be a bitch getting old. I'm glad that this is YOUR place and you don't care what anyone thinks, you shouldn't! JJust think, soo it will be over and you'll have this amazing little person (who will then be sucking more of the life right outta ya) Just kidding! I'm thinking of you. XOXO
I know just what you mean about getting burnt out on blogging. I've been feeling like such a bitch myself lately and not wanting to put that out there AGAIN for people to have to read. But truthfully, I don't know anyone out there in real life and don't plan to run for political office, so I should just let it all hang out, huh? Maybe we both should.
I'm sorry you're feeling crappy and I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa. Hope he can recover without any problems and pain. And I hope YOU can get some rest so you can decrease your own aches and pains. I remember that last home stretch of pregnancy so well and it's tough on a body.
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